I Chose to Die by Ksenia Anske is a deeply emotional book about Ailen Bright and her struggles to find where she belongs.
At a very young age, she lost her mother to suicide and felt lonely without her. Her woman-hating father never wanted her. He despised her and abused her for her entire life.
One of his favorite past times was locking her in the bathroom for hours on end. This bathroom was the only room in that entire house that locked. In the center of the room was a large, marble tub. On each of the four corners were two-foot high sculptures of Siren’s. To entertain herself, she would often talk to them as if they were sisters. According to her research, Ailen knew who each of them were and what they were like.
On her 16th birthday, she has decided to commit suicide. She first tried by drowning herself in the tub. That didn’t work because her father found her by kicking down the door. Once she escaped him, she ran to a bridge and jumped. That is when the unimaginable happened, after that, she met her sister sirens. See what happens next and what Ailen has got herself into.
The one thing I did not like about this story is how I personally could not relate to the main character, Ailen. It was not because of the abuse or the need to commit suicide. It is because she is wishy-washy and has a very big “pity me” attitude. I prefer my main characters to be strong, or at the very least, have certain type of personality and stick to it. I don’t mind watching a character grow or mature but not the opposite.
I grabbed I Chose to Die (Siren Suicides Book 1) during a free promotion.